Have you ever wondered what it would be like to spend 3-months in the same space without the ability to leave? With the chance of peering through your curtains to watch your neighbours try and exercise only to run back inside when it starts to rain. Now that’s happened what next, try and throw an empty can into the bin across the room, and if it misses trying again just to distract you 5-minutes. Watch a film or show you know of my heart for the millionth time.
If you scroll through social media as your way to stay connected to the world you wonder if we will ever be connected again when in our old ways and our old habits. We may never be in a world as close to the one we had ever again but has it changed for the better or has it being diverted into how much worse Direction. We may have found short and ways to entertain ourselves while in our isolation stations, but we never expect it to be in our isolation stations for this long so what now. Should we attempt to venture outside from the allocated walk?
As all of our plans are slowly dashed, we sit and ponder as to what 2020 has in store for us next. Maybe it will finally bring something good, but fearing that it will be something to add to this soul-destroying year, that we are slowly tracking through as each day the weight bears down slightly more. We venture to the kitchen yet again to find some form of food to distract us for the next 10 minutes as we load up the same show that we’ve binge-watched countless times before, but we feel like we’ve already completed all there is to watch on the streaming services we have at our disposal.
I sit and wonder what game I should play next, whilst questioning whether it was a Monday or Tuesday, or if I had left the room that day. Even when I'm feeling at my lowest I press on to meet deadlines and complete tasks whilst moving work from one surface of my room to the other as I slowly march through the workload to get to the finish line. Is the timepiece on our wrist the only thing keeping us grounded and stopping us from completely forgetting where we are in this long year?
Do we even still need time are we now finding an unnatural path in life and if we truly are a morning person or a night owl? Was it just work and made us a morning person alright we always destined to be a night out? Do you even like the job you have or is it just a means to pay the bills and use it as a stepping stone to get to where we want to be in life? In hindsight maybe the chop we thought we loved turned into the thing we hated most about our life now we can see we need to venture forward and find something new that will make us happy at the same time.
As I sit and wait at 1 am for Monday Night Raw knowing that in 3 hours the sun will rise for its next voyage across our Skies. I realise that our world is a beautiful place that now we can only experience it, in a short one hour burst or gazing at it from behind a panel of glass hoping with one day we will be allowed out for longer than an hour ready to get back to normality and all that it holds for us.
As we all band together to fight racism and listen to the horrendous stories of people’s abuse they’ve lived with but finding the courage to finally speak up, memes even though no we have Auburn divided
and separated due to a worldwide pandemic we have managed to become even closer and accept people for who they are. But also realise that sometimes it’s only a character that you’re seeing and the true self can be something much worse only some people will ever see. Maybe after this pandemic, we will all have had time to reflect how we behave and act towards others that we will all leave isolation stations as better human beings and better friends to everyone we meet because negative thoughts will only bring more negativity having less make the world and a much more pleasant place to be and to experience as we progress in our lives.
As we slowly coming to the end of locked down and have reached the other side I hope that we have all learned to accept who we are and others because trying to change who you have become an imitation of others will only bring you down and make it realise that you have so much more potential did you never reached you could’ve had a much different life, maybe this pandemic can be the driving force to bring change and make people be themselves around others and not hiding fear the film they are.
